haix.. i reli.. feel.. v sad.. i havent updated in a loooong time.. but i reli hafta put my feelings somewhere. since the holiday started.. i started falling for someone. i shall call him X. i dono why i fell for him.. but.. i jus did. hard. but.. he doesnt like me and never will.. instead.. he's in love wif a girl tat i find is v two faced.. but i cant do anything abt it.. i jus feel so.. miserable. i wish he cared for me more.. or at least sometimes said smth to make me happy. for example.. today.. i was saying tat he wud definitely choose her over me if we both wanted to send him home. and he din deny it. that was wad made me cry finally. >.< i reli wan him to be happy.. but i noe he wont be happy wif me. he's happy wif her. T_T i reli feel so hurt.. i keep tinking abt him at night.. i keep walking past his class jus to see him.. i wish he cared more abt me.. worse... i somehw wish he'd choose me over her. haha. but like crystal says.. "fat hope". 我真的爱得很傻. 可是我不能控制好我的心.tat day when i went out with him.. b4 he left wif her.. i reli felt like it was one of the best days of my life. i'm reli glad i had that chance even if it will never happen again.. the feeling of being so close to him.. even if he din keep his promise.. i am already one of the happiest ppl in the world at tat time.. 我太痴情了>.<
x means so much to me.. but.. i dont mean shit to him.
oh well. my life is lyk shit. no1 ever wants me.
at least i reli luv my frens nw. :D
losing my grip. [10:25 PM]
*My Name..:..Yanisa
*Birthdate..:..8.dec.89
*School..:..Ngee Ann Sec
.:. Loves .:.
mah pals
my hp, com n mp3
.:. Hates .:.
turtle
irritatin pieces of shyt
.:. Memory Lane .:.
January 2005
February 2005
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
July 2005
.:. Links .:.
[=-0-=] cAsherinee
.:. Credits .:.
[=-x-=] Chunlian
[=-0-=] Jian Yong
[=-x-=] Joniece
[=-0-=] Laura
[=-x-=] Michelle Wan
[=-0-=] Qing Wen
[=-x-=] Shi Rui
[=-x-=]Siti
[=-0-=] Solomon
[=-x-=] Wen Qi
[=-0-=] Xin Yuan
Introduction
I'm loud n rude. =))
I take pride in hurtin ppl's feelins
Deal wif it. ((=