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Friday, January 28, 2005

.:. ._.eight._. .:.

hmmx.. todae i cant help tinkin abt him... haix... its been so long.. so long since i last spent his bdae wif him.. since i dumped him... since that last valentines day together.. since i started regretting.. 3 years.. and now i'm still thinking.. what did i do... he was the best thing that happened in my life.. and i threw him away.. ARGHHHH... i guess there are tings in life that one lives to regret... on the way to sch.. i stopped tinkin abt him.. thot abt daniel instead.. thot abt how daniel bounced away tat day at tm... jus felt how childish i thot he was.. dono why... hmmx.. maybe i'm jus growing up.. dont wanna be hurt agn.. sometimes i reli wish we didnt haf memories. hmmx. got a bit angry at mich todae... but didnt reli say anitink.. during choir we had hell... i was soooo nervous when it came to my turn to sing alone.. so i freaked out and screwed it up.. ARGHHHHS!! regret it so manx.. hw cud i haf been so out of tune.. narelle said my voice shook like hell.. i was cursing myself and mr yong manx.. oh well... wad to do...

losing my grip. [10:15 AM]

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Thursday, January 27, 2005

.:. ._.eight._. .:.

hehx.. =x=x todaex i went tuition wif shi rui n solomon.. before that we stayed in class to slack den afta tat went to tmart to eat.. toked abt lotsa stuff.. and on the way to tmart i almost fell >.<.. hmmx... i guess i neva reli got to noe solomon well... but todae i did.. hehx.. i noe for one he's a gentleman.. cos he gave up a space for me wahaha. lolx. den... cos he stays like 2/3 blocks away fr me.. we got down the bus tog after tuition and we spoke quite a bit. hmmx.... its been a long time since i went to mavis.. abt 2 mths maybe.. and i've forgotten hw handsome mr ng is. LOLS. but i dont like swoon over guys whu are too old lahs. lolx.. i didnt reli understand wad he taught cos i didnt learn in class yet and he already taught the rest quite alot. lolx. but i'm going earli on monday tho.. soo.. we'll see.

losing my grip. [10:12 AM]

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Tuesday, January 25, 2005

.:. ._.seven._. .:.

gonna renovate my bloggie soon.. >.< but kinda lazyy.. hehx.. todae nth much lahs.. stayed in sch den went hm.. smth happened to cl.. i reli reli hope it'll be alright fer her.. last time when i in deep shit wif my dad cos of my hp i oso noe hw she feel even tho its a diff matter.. jus hope tings will be fine.. ^^ so.. i'm gone.. =gushes= he's so cute.. =x cant state here hu it is.. cos mani ppl noe himmm.. hehx

losing my grip. [10:04 PM]

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Monday, January 24, 2005

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hmm jus came back fr genting ytd.. funn!!! wif jie jie mable n kor kor chris and babie cherie ... hehx.. funnn! lols.. wanna go back.. lols... den todae go sch lor.. my chn 3A i got study den onli get 106/200.. den 3B neva study get 143/200 i tink.. siao sia.. den the beggar book ting i onli read like 40 page.. den get 20/30.. whee! lols.. den afta sch go parkway wif teresa.. eat lunch den walk walk.. den go stege she pierce eyebrow.. quite nice wors.. i tinkin of piercing smth.. dono wad oso..

losing my grip. [11:04 PM]

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Saturday, January 22, 2005

.:. ._.five._. .:.

hmms.. todae in sch nth much lahs.. did my chn test and knew i flunked it.. lols.. dench hung ard in canteen with cl, mich, wq n solo n sr while i waited for teresa.. den wq tricked cl with his dumb experiment tingyy.. but actually quite funnie =x sorrie cl.. lols.. den i wait for teresa den like verh long so i went to tm first.. den i nid to go library to return bk mahs.. den dat michie n cl lazy to walk >.< so shi rui and solomon get dwn wif mi for a fee.. lols.. den we walk walk walk suddenly walk until the road.. den solomon was like.. u wan to die ahs here no traffic light.. den i was like i follow u 2 de! den he was like.. we follow u wan lor! anyway.. i met teresa afta dat. den i pei while she eat lunch den we tok tok.. den afta dat we go watch ELECTRA... wheee so nice.. LOLs... aiyars.. den at nite go malaysia lors.... until sundaee..

losing my grip. [1:00 PM]

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Wednesday, January 19, 2005

.:. ._.four._. .:.

hmmx... todae... quite tiring.. morning got pe.. den i was hiding in the toilet for the beginning cos i didnt want to run.. LOLs... and i managed to miss it!!!! yeaa... den the later part was reli fun.. played mr koh's crazy games.. i liked the sausage hockey tingy.. lols... poor penis-like tinggy got whacked ard by us..

SS tat time mrs tan neva come.. den me, jia xian, lock bin, cl, mich and emmanuel were sitting around jia xian's table.. then we were toking and playing with the roses tat jj gave me... den we spoke abt daniel.. cos they asked mi smth abt him.. den i was like.. huh who's daniel? boy or girl? den lockbin started saying dono wad "sum1 and sum1 at sentosa.." den he kept saying n saying.. den i finally gave up "not acknowledging" tat he was there and started toking.. =x=x its been a long time since i thot abt wad happened in the past.. i guess tokin to them abt it made me think abt him once agn.. i guess i never reli fang xia the matter.. never forgave myself for behaving the way i did.i jus cant help missing him sometimes.. crying over wad i feel i lost.. i noe tat in sec 2.. when i was wif him.. i was always somehow put down.. but i never ever minded.. i felt protective of him even.. but.... oh i dono.

anyway.. the jazz tingy in the afternoon was funnn.. heh.. i quite liked it lahs.. den choir.. todae we had the audition tingy... den when me vera and siti went up to sing.. mr yong asked siti to sing louder.. den he said.. its not ur fault siti.. its cos vera and yanisa are too loud.. heh.. funnie.. den anyway the three of us were chosen.. so its fine.. ^^ yea.. den after choir i met fey a while.. den went home be guai kia.. hehx.. abt 8+ reach hm ba..

losing my grip. [2:08 PM]

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Sunday, January 16, 2005

.:. ._.three._. .:.

hmms.. neva update few daes ler.. basically... not much happen ba..

Thursday
hmm.. todae go ang mo kio hospital.. hmm... go make mandarin orange for the patients for cny.. hmm i half hope tat i cud like look after the patients or smth... but we didnt get smth like tat.. i jus feel like a job like tat wud be more meaningful.. den.. afternoon i went to michie's hse to swim.. swam for 3 hrs but never darker de >.< must go agn next week.. lub michie! lols

Friday
todae go amk hospital agn.. den i walked around wif mich and lockbin ba.. didnt do tat much work =x=x.. den i borrowed mich's zhang dong liang and qi li xiang bring hm.. hehe.. den afternoon went wif jie to orchard and suntec to shop and fix my cam.. ^^ den at nite go yoga.. todae quite painful.. maybe cos yesterdae swim den abit aching.. hehes

Saturday
hmm todae nth lah.. neva step out at all.. studied for chem and played compie..

Sunday
went out wif the old ppl todae.. aka mom n dad.. den dad went to best.. and spent 1000+ i tink... bought a digital cam and a dvd home theatre system.. whee cool sia.. hehees.. den nth lor..

chatting wif: jj, michie, dc

losing my grip. [9:40 PM]

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Wednesday, January 12, 2005

.:. ._.two._. .:.

ahhh.. i'm being haunted!!! todae.. at sch nth much lah.. verh sian.. den afta sch take pic wif sr and nat and mich and yongxian.. hehe.. den i went tm meet jie.. den we go bugis take her paycheck and buy prezzie for willy... dennn i dropped the dollie keychain tat was on my handphone.. den when i got home tonite.. my jie suddenly call me.. den sae she found my dollie in her hse lift!!!!!! tats lyk so far from the place i dropped it!! den it was mine exactly cos got this marker mark tat i once accidentally drew on it.. ahhhhh wad is going on!!! freaky rite.. =x.. betta nt tink too much.. i'm off..

toking to : mich, georgina, fey, gary, kuan bing

losing my grip. [9:30 PM]

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Monday, January 10, 2005

.:. ._.one._. .:.

testinggggg

losing my grip. [11:09 PM]

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